I've used this song before, but it's one that I can listen to everyday and still say the same thing "I want a heart that forgives."
It's been a little over a month since I've written a post here on my blog. What can I say? I didn't have anything to write about? I don't have anything to say? All of those words seem empty in comparison to what God has done for me.
It has been seven months since my husband and I separated, and now I find myself faced with the reality that he wants to work on our marriage. I know that everyone has their own opinion on marriage and divorce and what to do and what not to do. I do know that after the years we spent together and the hurt he caused when he left that I do not have it in me, even with God to allow him to be a part of my life in that manner ever again. I'm happy that he has decided to finally get back to a place with God that he remembers his love and knows that life is better with him by your side. I know that with God in his life, he will grow and propser and become the man that he has always wanted to be. I'm still working on my forgiveness. I know that I am leaps and bounds ahead of what I was a few months ago, but still not anywhere near where I need to be to say "I've forgiven you." My forgiveness is not to welcome him back in to my home or my life. My forgiveness is to let go.
2 Chronicles 20:17 (NIV) reads "You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the LORD will give you, O Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the LORD will be with you.'"
I've taken up my position and I"m standing firm.
